Backslide? There is nothing worse than trying so hard. So very very hard, to move on and to heal, and then have people in your life who pull you backward. So far backward, you nearly feel worse off than you were at the very beginning of your leap towards getting well. It’s like going in for a follow up doctor’s appointment and thinking you are well but being told you have stage four cancer.
And you can’t remove some of these people from your life because they are family. You are forced to live with one because of finances. You are raising the others. And the one you aren’t related to might have issues bigger than you can handle.
This is how people become dead inside. I see it clearly now. Emotionless. Wandering. Faking it just to keep the attention off of them.